High Five for Friday

Ever had one of those weeks that you wish you could have a do-over?  That's how I'm feeling about this week. It wasn't the best.  I don't like to be sad or mad.  Normally If I am I just hold everything in and spend a lot of time alone with a bottle of wine, and shut everyone and everything out because I don't want to be a drag.  I like to be positive, I like to find the good in everything..sometimes even the bad stuff.  Sometimes it's hard, but that is the person that I choose to be. I don't like to complain..I'm not perfect. I know there are millions of people in the world that have much bigger problems than I have and I don't want to be ungrateful.  

I was very reluctant to post this blog today. I sent it to Nicole early this morning to see if I sounded like a total debbie downer...that's not how I want to be perceived, and no one likes a debbie downer...especially me.  My goal in life is to make people happy, but often times I forget that the most important person to make happy is myself.  I try my hardest.  Nicole read my blog and told me that nobody expects me to be in a good mood, and optimistic all of the time, and reminded me that my blog is a representation of myself, and sometimes it's nice to see that I am just like everyone else because everyone has bad weeks and days.  She said that my blog shows how awesome I am for still being optimistic even when I don't realize it.  She is so right, and I needed to hear that. Afterall, we are only human, and sometimes the best we can be in that moment is the best we know how to be. Sometimes you've got to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and just get on with it no matter how much it hurts.

In the beginning of my blogging journey the purpose of H54F was to point out the good things about my week..So, here goes nothin...

 I got this bracelet...otherwise known as a bravelet from my Mom and Dad at Christmas.  It's just a leather band, with a stainless steel piece on it that says...be brave....  The proceeds of this bracelet went back to the lupus foundation.  I got my friend Lynn a pink one and the proceeds went to breast cancer research.  On her way to her first chemo treatment I texted her to remember to be brave, and reminded her that she is the bravest person I know.  I smile every time I see her and notice that she is wearing it.  I wear mine no matter what.  All the time.  This week I fiddled with it a lot, looked at it, rolled it around my arm, and remembered to look at it, and read what it says...because this week I needed to remember to be extra brave, and sometimes you forget.

I went to Murfreesboro for a class I needed for work.  I stayed in town until the last day of class.  One evening while getting in the elevator someone caught the door and one after the other these insanely tall boys piled in until there was no more room..They were in town for a basketball tournament.  As they all piled into the elevator I couldn't help but giggle...I've never felt shorter in my life. 

So, I passed my test in my class, and am one step closer to my end goal. It was nice to be able to sit down at my favorite pub and have lunch with my instructor both days I was in the boro.  I love picking her brain, and she always gives me the confidence boost I need for my job. 

  I haven't slept well in days..practically all week I have tossed and turned and had the same bad dream over and over. No fun. It's turning into quite the nightmare. But, while in Murfreesboro, I let myself relax, I spent all of my time alone after class studying, and I slept like a baby..Finally.

 I finished the Delirium trilogy I mentioned in last weeks H54F.  I don't think I could have read those books at a better time in my life.  Through things going on in the book, I was able to see and understand why certain things are happening in my own life.  Right book at the right time.  It was a great tril.  I recommend it to anyone that likes YA fast reads. Got the first book for my new tril in the mail yesterday.  Divergent.  It is also YA and about future dystopia.  I really wanted to start on it last night, but I had a few glasses of wine when I got home, then not even thinking about it I took an ambien.  Huge mistake.  No reading for me, but no nightmares either. Winning..

  Trey told me his reading class is going to do a Harlem shake video at the end of the year.  If you've been on the internet in the last month you know what the Harlem shake is.  It's pretty down right hilariously obnoxious. I asked him if he decided what dance move he will do...he told me what he wanted to do...I won't tell you because well it's inappropriate..  I gave him the look...you know the "mom look" and I said "really?!!  Please don't do that.. that's distasteful...let some other moms kid do it."  So, we brainstormed a few rockin dance moves. The kid has mad dance skills.  He gets that from me.  (poor thing) .It was a funny conversation.  My kid is funny (he also gets that from me)

 I think Nicole has ESP or something because I needed a friend this week, and she didn't even know it.  I got a text, which made me cry, and I'm pretty sure we were talking about finger nail files. (lol)  I was just so happy to hear from her.  Then I got a surprise phone call in the same day.  It's funny how talking about Henry's first Easter basket, birchbox, and breast feeding will make a bad day partially better. 

I got my Birchbox in the mail this week.  I pretty much love everything in it.  Tomorrow I am going roller skating with a bunch of 12 year old girls. This is going to be fun! I'm gonna skate circles around these girls and show em how its done...old school style. Hopefully I haven't forgotten how to roller skate...

One foot in front of the other...

Thanks for stopping by.

The end

xo

Carrie